People tend to be a little self-involved and self-absorbed. I'm not condemning others and leaving myself out here. Trust me, I fall into the trap of me, me, me and self-pity sometimes too, it is as natural a part of life. There are times that we all get upset because it seems like life is too hard, or there are to many un-fair and difficult things happening to us. We don't want to take the road less traveled, we want to take the road to easy street.
I have come to a conclusion. We are doing ourselves a disservice by expecting life to be easy. You never learn anything if you never try. You will never develop so many important character traits if you never have to deal with any adversity. I'm not saying that it is fun, or fair, or something to look forward to. I am just saying that it is a part of life and what makes us who we are in the end.
That said. I am about to complain about things that aren't easy in my life right now. As many of you know my husband is active duty Air Force, which means deployments, and we are in the middle of one right now. This deployment has been interesting to say the least, it has been full of changes in plans and location, as well as changes in safety and communication. Right now we are about to start a time where there will be limited communication and increased danger. I am trying not to let the stress and worry rule my life, but sometimes all I want to do is wallow in my worry. I want to wear a sign that says "My husband is deployed, feel sorry for me" I want to lock myself in my room for a few days and eat as much junk food as possible. I have met women who do that, and to tell you the truth, they drive me nuts. But it doesn't keep me from wanting to from time to time.
Another thing I am worried about is related to a previous post. I know that the way that my family eats is not healthy. I have greatly improved my own personal diet, but I haven't made any major changes in the diet of my family. What kind of mother am I? I want to take care of myself and not my children? I want to improve my own health and not improve the health of my husband? All of my excuses come down to one thing, it's hard. It is hard to completely change the way you eat, it is even harder to do so for your family. I can tell my girls that they need to eat more veggies and junk. But they are too young to understand that. They understand that I am taking away their favorite foods. Convenience foods are just that convenient, it is easy to make Mac & Cheese, Pizza Rolls and Chicken nuggets.
So as of today, I am going to make a pledge. When I am faced with a decision between the easy road and the better road, I will take the better road. I will stop expecting life to be handed to me on a silver platter, I will take an active role in making not only my life better and fuller, but also the lives of my family and friends. Would you take this pledge with me? Will you take the difficult step and choose to take the harder road? If you do, I think that you will find that your life is more of what you want it to be.
